Day 125

there is something humbling? i dont know if that's the right word... maybe its disconcerting or unsatisfying or umcomfortable... well, whatever the word is, i kind of feel that way because a life changing event has not really changed my life. for better. for worse. i dont feel different. my situation hasnt changed. my day to day... is still my day to day.

i guess its that feeling of "you just turn 21, 25, 30, 40 etc... and people ask 'do you feel any different'" and every time, you stop to think about it... and slowly come back with the obligatory "i dont think i do..."

yeah, its kind of like that. society and those around you make you believe you should feel some way, and you create that expectation... and yet... nope. same old same old.

im not trying to be deep... just thinking out loud errr or i guess, on a computer.